Thursday, May 29, 2008
BEING IN TWENTIES - SOMETHING
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because
you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends... maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion...
We call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."
Friday, May 23, 2008
Well I know that you would be wondering why I the world I’m writing on this issue of kiss, no I haven’t got my first kiss as yet from any girl cause I’m not having any girlfriend as of now ;). Kiss can be of many forms, the kiss given by small kids, or the kiss given by parents to their kids showing affection or the first kiss given by a girl/guy to his/ her partner. Actually there are many styles of kissing, French, Indian, check a peek Hmm affection it is but it can be of many types.
Now what is the kissa I’m talking about Is what happened few months ago. I had exams in the afternoon and was just having a final glance at the books while sitting in my balcony and suddenly a car comes and stands in front of my house gate, this car was one of the pretty luxurious one’s, the guy sitting in the drivers seat was also well dressed. Ab hua ye ki I had a curiosity as to who is this person and that too stopping in front of my house, there was no traffic on the road and there was no reason I could figure out to have a stop gap, so I stood up and while I was seeing the guy in the drivers seat pulled a women (or girl I’m not too sure) towards him and engrossed himself into a French kiss :O which lasted for a minute I guess, after which he promptly moved to his destination, Keeping me dumbstruck. Did someone say that there is very less privacy in Mumbai, well seemed so….
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
Monday, October 08, 2007
|Your Dominant Intelligence is Spatial Intelligence|
You've got a good sense of space and how the world around you looks.
You can close your eyes and "see" images. You have innate artistic talent.
An eye for color and shapes, you're also a natural designer.
Since you think in pictures, visual aids and demonstartions help you learn best.
You would make a good navigator, sculptor, visual artist, inventor, architect, interior designer, or engineer.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
After catching some sleep in the breezy night I woke up at 7 in the morning and went out near station to take toll of the situation, but it was still drizzling. There was no point in returning back home as most of the places would be still flooded and having just a little above 100 rupees I thought of going to the nearest STM to withdraw some money for some urgent requirement. Hoping against hope that the ATM would be working went to old panvel. Most of the shops were closed and hotels too. There was nothing to offer to eat at any hotels or the road side tapriwalas. I reached the ATM center only to find “This ATM is out of order, please nearest ATM center” displayed on the ATM screen. With no other ATM machine nearby I started to walk back to the station, luckily I found a place where there was something to eat. By the time I reached there he had only one samosa and he was preparing vadapav. Having the single samosa and a plate of vadapav. On the way back to the station I took some paracetamol tablets for emergency sake. In the station there were very few people and I could get a place to sit on the chair which is meant for waiting purpose. Sitting there I was listening to radio hoping to get some news of the situations around. It was nice to hear the RJ’s helping out people in locating their near and dear ones instead of playing ads in between songs. I couldn’t continue this long as I had to keep a tab on my battery too, so it was better that I had kept it switch off. Finally when the rains stopped I thought of going near my house. I could see about 2 to 3 inch of mud on the road which I normally used to reach home, most of the people out on the streets, some trying to find milk or eatables and some cleaning up their house which was filed up with mud which had come with the water. Reaching near the road near the garden I could still see water which had not receded yet. On inquiring with some people nearby they told that there is still about 6 to 8 feet water on the road and I had to cross that road in order to reach my home. It didn’t strike me that I could use the highway route to reach my home. I stood there for few more minutes and could see people helping others crossing road even with water at neck deep height. Finally I decided to go back to the station and try going back home a little later but also thinking about the damage the deluge would have done.
At about 2 in the afternoon I started back again but this time from the highway route which is very long one. Though there was water at thigh high level I could manage to reach my home. On opening the door I could find most of my belongings standing back at the entrance door. I had to struggle hard to open the door since it got bloated due to the wetness. It was a complete mess with mud all over the floor and most of my books, clothes bags in drenched with mud. Even the almost full LPG cylinder had floated to some other place in the water. With very little water, which I got from the still falling rains I cleaned the whole house and the clothes books whatever I could, getting it to some better position than earlier. My neighbors were also busy in cleaning their house. Finally after about two hours of cleaning I could get rid of the mud that lies in my house and moved on to my aunt’s house for that night. I had it cleaned finally only on Friday since water was supplied for the whole day and I could do the remaining cleaning of the house.
This is one experience I will not be able to forget in my life, though it was a real bad experience it had thought me something. Maybe next time I could handle such situations better.
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
By reading the heading most of you might have got an idea what this post would be, also with most of the dailies and news channels relaying the visuals of the event that happened this very day last year. Most of us who were staying in Mumbai might have gone through similar situation or maybe even worse. So this post is basically what I had been through on this very day, the details about the next that is of 27th July, I will write in a new post tomorrow. I wanted to write this experience of mine a long time back but later on thought of posting it on this very day.
I used to stay in Panvel at the time of this deluge, and also at ground floor. The day began as usual waking up at the same time and getting ready for office, there was a change that it was raining since early morning, and the road a few meters away from my house which was my normal approach to the railway station was flowing with water at 4 ft. so I had to take a different route to reach the station, it wasn’t raining that heavily but it was raining. I caught the train and reached my office which is about 15 min by train that is in Belapur. Even at office the day was like any other day. By the time it was afternoon it started to pour heavily and some of started to get concerned about the rain, but everyone including me had the same thinking that it will stop soon. It was also the birthday of one of our support staff members and we had a small party at our office premises. Maybe this birthday I might not forget for a long long time. The area outside our office had already started to flood and the water level was rising to the silencer level of most of the two wheelers. By the time it was we had got orders from the higher officials to vacate the premises as water had started to get into the ground floor of our building. By even I thought of moving out of office. We came to know that the trains were not running and we had to take a bus till Panvel. I and one of my colleague who also stayed in Panvel moved out of office. When we reached ground floor we could see almost 2 to 4 inch of water on the ground floor, even though it was at considerable height water had managed to come in. The electric personnel’s started to shut down mains as they feared of short circuit or electrocution. The water level outside the main entrance was about 3 ft. we both somehow managed to come through the water and obviously we were wet till our thighs. Somehow we managed to reach the highway at Belapur, there were a lot people stranded there without any transport system available, and those which were coming were full till the doors, also there was traffic jam which is very unlikely in this area on any given time of a day. We stayed there for around half an hour for a bus but we couldn’t board any. The police personnel’s present there made a point in sending the ladies first in all the available transport systems. Finally we got a chance to go on a truck. It was raining heavily with wind, and over that we were in an open truck. It was very difficult to manage the balance and also hold the umbrella in position after a few distance I closed my umbrella as there was no point in keeping it open. We got down at Panvel highway and walked along the road and we moved to our homes. The road to my home was still flooded with water. Somehow I reached home and I could see water in front of my house.
So finally I reached home but there was no electricity and I started with lighting candles and just thinking of having some snacks and evening tea. It was in the evening and after changing my dress I was out at my entrance door to see how the water is behaving. It had started to fill in some of the houses which were at a lower height, I knew that if this continues it won’t be long that my house will also be filled with water. At about the water started to come inside my house. But something in me knew that it’s going to be worse, so I decided to move out of my house and go to my relative’s house which is Vashi, I changed my dress kept all the belongings at a pretty safer height on my kitchen platform and put one set of dress in my rather small bag and stuffed it with biscuit packet and a bottle of water and moved out of my house. When I came out of my house the water level was about 4 ft. I crossed the same path to reach the highway still unaware what is stored in for me and also couldn't judge the gravity of the situation. I was still hoping that the rains will stop in some time and the water will recede and everything will come back to normal. Reaching the highway I found that no buses were stopping there, so thought of moving to the bus depot and catching the bus from there. I could see the ST busses coming in to the depot but no busses moving out of the depot. I thought of having some food and ended up with vadapav, the only thing available at that moment. I purchased some packets of biscuit which would be good atleast till the next day as reserves. After waiting for about an hour heard the rumor that the train service have started, I got a company till the railway station. We both were hoping against hope that the trains will start, but to our bad luck or good luck the trains were not plying. It was by then, there was an announcement that arrangements were made at the schools in that area for peoples affected by flooding, but the approach roads were full with about 6 to 7 ft of water. I tried to see that if there was any approach to the schools mentioned, but there wasn’t any. A person was standing in that heavy rain with flooding around for his company bus. I casually asked him why are you standing there to which he told that the company bus is coming to pick him up. I told him that there is no way that any vehicle can come till there that night. He agreed after knowing the fact that the water is indeed very much and made way to his home. Meanwhile I moved back to railway station which was luckily not flooded with water. The foot over bridge was occupied by nearby slum people. I decided to see a place to atleast sit on the railway platform for that night. Luckily I got a place there to sit but the platform was open, I started to feel cold since I was wet and there was breeze along with the rain. I couldn’t stay any longer there and moved near the ticket counter area as the rest rooms were given to ladies. Luckily had some newspaper of that day and finally I sat there near the ticket counter to avoid the cool breeze. It was 12 in the night I was awake and saw that my mobile network was still working, but it didn’t last long and even that too went off. I could see some more people stranded like me trying to call their near and dear ones and telling them that they are safe and would reach home as soon as this rains stop. Some of them were smoking cigarette to overcome cold. I couldn’t control my sleep and slept there itself in sitting position.
This was the experience of this day, the experience of the next day will be published tomorrow.
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Yesterday while coming back home form my office I could see the sky filled with black clouds, now that was a sign of rains but I have been seeing then for past two three days, they came and went. But today it was determined to do something, while walking on the road I could see the lightning strike and also could hear the thunders. This was a sure sign that it’s going to rain today. I could feel few droplets of water falling on me, I could smell the fragrance coming after the first showers form the earth, it was tantalizing me. Later on it started to rain and I sat by the window of my house and enjoyed the view of the rain, also I could see many people near their window enjoying the rains. On the building opposite to mine I could see some kids coming out of their house and enjoying getting wet in the first rain. I couldn’t resist getting wet in the rain, I stood in my terrace under the rain till it stopped, I could see more people enjoying getting wet in this rain. I could even see a 60 year old man sitting over the compound wall on his banyan and pajamas and getting drenched in the rain while his wife stood under the building’s parking area seeing him getting drenched. Almost everybody I could see had a smile on their face from small kids to teenagers like me to oldies.
Maybe this is the way god has made the nature, so that people truly and fully enjoy every season as it comes and don’t take it for granted. The summers were harsh but the rains have given more enjoyment and smile on everybody’s face than grief, similarly spring season is enjoyed after winter. This really give the message that there always a “Silver Lining“. Maybe this is how god says how you should live our life, it will be hard at times but this is never permanent, the seasons will change so will life. So live life as it comes and never curse it there is light at the other end of the tunnel.